THAT girl

Pre Note: Even though no one other than me will read this blog. I still want to talk like...a blog writer. So that's why I refer to myself as "you guys" or "you".

Okay so by now I bet everyone's wondering, whose that crazy girl whom you hate so much and why are all your blog posts about people like her. Well, mainly I started this blog due to her extreme rudeness and putting me down...ness. :D That's why most of my blog posts are like angry rants! So probably when I read this in the future, I'm going to seem like a child O RAAAAGEEE!!!

So yes, this girl. Let me tell you about her. I won't include names because I don't like gossiping and writing other peoples names on the internet, no matter how terrible they've acted towards me. I've known this girl for about 3 to 4 years. Even back then, she used to be bossy and said whatever she felt like. For instance, we had to do whatever she wanted. And back then, she used to be nice looking because almost everyone is pretty looking before puberty. She used to have wavy dark blonde hair and hazel eyes. And she used to be shorter and a bit plump. She also used to have fair skin since she didn't go out much. Me, on the other hand, was also short (but a bit taller than her), had dark skin due to weeks and weeks in our house in Florida and light brown hair (with a few sun bleached highlights). Back then I used to always but my hair up in a ponytail and I used to have a deep voice due to allergies and sinuses (now my voice is much higher). I also used to wear OVAL shaped glasses which always fell down to the middle of my nose and I used to tilt my head upwards to look at people. Basically, I wasn't ugly at all, but not really pretty either. I can't really remember anyone (other than a few kids who had crushes on me) who complimented me rather than tell my mom "oh you have such a lovely daughter and kids". (Mom's friends have to say that). And back then, I really didn't care about looks or anything much really. And then after a year we moved to another country and so did they. But me and that girl kept in touch with email for nearly 3 years now. We told everything to each other, and she sent me pics and I never sent her anything because my family's not really the picture taking type.

 And in the end of 8th grade I started changing. Like my facial features. I know this sounds almost crazy like, yea right no one can change sooo much that even their relatives won't notice them on the streets! But I'm serious. It's almost like the ugly duckling turns into a swan story, except I'm still not pretty as a swan :D If you don't believe me, here are my 6th grade and my 10th grade pictures. Sorry if my old picture is blurry, it's cuz I took it from my cellphone. Left is me in 6th grade and the one on the right is me taken a few weeks ago! And there is ABSOLUTELY no photoshop or editing or whatever used!  I don't even have photoshop! And see how nice my skin used to be back then, all tan and stuff. Wish I had that now :/

***UPDATE: I have removed the 2 pictures btw! Sorry!

So anyways, since I never sent that girl any pictures of me, she thought I looked like I did in 6th grade and sometimes I used to tell her that I'm different now and stuff. But she never really imagined how much I'd changed. I used to tell her sometimes when guys and people on the street complimented me. Because we told each other EVERYTHING! Every single detail, so it's not like I was bragging or anything. She also told me about her compliments and stuff to. :D 

 A few months ago, I finally put a picture on facebook and she couldn't believe it. She was like "your so pretty" and stuff and I told her thanks and blah blah. But things got a bit different from then on. Like whenever I told about when someone complimented me or whenever a guy was interested in me, she would just IGNORE it. Like before she would comment on every detail, but now she just acts like she never even saw the email. She still told me about her compliments though and I still told her that she deserved it and commented on it. 

And a few weeks ago I told her that I was going to go platinum blonde and she was like "WHAT WHY?" and I told her that since I have a light skintone I can go blonde and that all my friends told me it would look great on me. She then proceeded to tell me that "your natural haircolor was soo beautiful. like emma stone" when she KNEW that I had dyed my hair. Then she was like "no you don't have the right skintone to be blonde" and I told her "well, all my friends here tell me i have a blonde hair skintone, so yea. and I basically never really met a girl with natural blonde hair in this country (as you know I moved to another country, she also moved to another country) and she was like "so you don't consider me blonde?" (she had dark brown hair, see picture from previous blog post) and I'm like, "not really since ur hair darkened to brown. You're absolutely gorgeous with brown hair though. :D ) and she was like "well, your not blonde even if you dye you hair blonde. i have lots of friends here who consider themselves blondes, when they just dye their hair" and then she proceeded to be like "yea yea, okay im a brunette whatever. change the subject. how was ur day" HOW RUDE!!! And maybe I can't seem to convey the...i dunno...rudeness in which she said all of this, but trust me, this wasn't a girl who actually cared about her friend and wanted to give an honest opinion. She acted very angryish and rude. Almost even annoyed that I now had blonde hair. She also told me that "my mom doesn't want me to dye my hair so I can preserve my natural beauty". I'm sorry but WHAT natural beauty? You are disgusting both on the inside, and that makes you ugly on the outside too! No wonder she never had any friends and got bullied!! And has only 70 friends on facebook. She used to tell me they made fun of her since they were jealous, but I do not think that is true. She is not a "conventional beauty" (but not ugly or a plain jane either). But the way she acts makes me see her in a very different light since personality is VERY important for me. More than looks or anything actually. So I might be biased.

 For some reason my gut instinct tells me she's jealous or angry in a way. And don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those girls who think whenever someone dislikes me, that they are jealous of me. No way! I just have a feeling that SHE is. She even admitted in her blog that she was a very very jealous person and once (a looong time ago) she even admitted to me that she used to be jealous of me because I always listened to my mother and her mom always gave me as an example.

 And now, I think know there is something going on with the way I look. None of this ever happened before I added my facebook picture. I used to tell her back then that I dyed my hair purple or highlighted it, and she was like "oh cool! i wish my mom wud let me" but after she saw my picture, she just...i dunno...changed i guess. Less friendly in a way and a bit offensive too. Whenever I had an opinion of something like plastic surgery, she used to go ballistic almost. She tried talking me out with religion and told me I would go to HE**!! And that god would punish me. She also told me that "you need to see a shrink right away!". And she told me she would stop being friends with me and put a wall between us. None of my other friends have EVER told me anything like that. A real friend respects another friends decision no matter how much she disagrees on it. But nooooo, not her. Once I told her I bought new heels, and she was acting all disgusted like "why would you wear HEELS?" and i told her "why wouldn't i? :D they're the most wonderful type of shoes ever! i luv heels, especially stilettos. wbu?" and she just changed the subject whenever i don't agree with something she said!

And yesterday was the last straw. We had a huge fight online due to her saying perverted s**ual explicit things to me when I was younger, and when I told her what she had told me, she went angry and told me i was a liar/delusional and she swore on her dead grandparents grave she didn't say some of those things. she only remembers one part of the conversation but not the rest. and i have saved all the chat logs so I sent it to her, but she thinks i just made it up. that was IT! i was up to here with her. so i wrote her a long message on facebook explaining all the rude things she said to me and then she BLOCKED me! and you know when you block someone, you can't reblock him/her! So they can unblock you at any time and see your wall and then quickly reblock you! Facebook needs to fix that. But I just went to privacy settings and put the names of all my fb friends that were allowed to see my page, and hopefully she won't be able to.

 So now you know, why I'm so against people like her.

 (>'.')> Vanity Cat <('.'<)

EDITED: (Parts removed) About me and other stuff

     Well, since I started off to this blog with a rant, I decided to write a little bit about me. Not because someone might see this blog (since this is a personal blog and I don't really plan on showing it to others) but because I can remember how I was when I become old and stuff. I think its really interesting when I read stuff that I wrote years ago and have no memory doing so. It's just like reading my old diaries. I always think how stupid I was back then and how I wish I had a time machine to go back and strangle myself before writing those idiotic diary entries. :D I even feel embarrassed thinking about them. I was such a mama's girl back then. But thank gawd I am not any more! THANK YOU TEENAGE HORMONES!!! Now I rebel with passion against authority. *coughPARENTScough* 

     So anyways I thought that writing a blog might be a good idea since I can access it whenever. Also there is this website called futureme.com and you get to send emails to you future self. :D How cool is that! You get to choose the date and time when your email arrives and I had just got a very angsty one from 2 years ago complaining how "my life sucked" and how much I "hate my parents with a BURNING PASSION* for them not letting me wear what I wanted. It was quite funny actually but back then, I don't think it was. I also sent one to 20 years in the future (hopefully I'll still be using my email then) and told me to divorce with my husband if I had one. And if I had kids, then give em up for adoption! I used to be 12 back then and totally against the idea of marriage.

     So anyways, back to the topic: About Moi. Well basically I am a teenage angsty girl. My profile picture was taken a few weeks ago. I now have very light blonde hair with highlights and I'm going PLATINUM in a few months. My natural hair color is brown/lightbrown,  for all you natural beauty weenies out there who are wondering (U GUYS CAN KISS ME DIET-PILL WEIGHT LOSSED ASS :D ACTUALLY NO, KEEP THOSE LIPS TO URSELF! YOU GUYS PROBABLY DON'T USE CHAPSTICK ANYWAYS. OR HELL, MAYBE EVEN BRUSH YOUR TEETH!). 

     My eye color is hazel because even though it has some green in it, it also has brown which makes it HAZEL. I'm not gonna lie and try to make myself seem "white". Green eyes are when all of your eye is green. I know this one girl who is very rude to me (she even admitted once she was jealous of me!) says that her eyes are "moss green". AS IF!! Her eyes include brown in them, which makes them light hazel. Except she is from a european/middle eastern country and I think she wants to be more Anglo Saxon, that's why she is obsessed with whitening her skin (she even says, i quote "sorry, but I think darker skin is ugly" RACIST MOFO!!!) and trying to keep her ONCE dark blonde hair (as a child, many many people have light colored hair) and failing badly (since it is now a MOUSY brown color. which is the worst kinda brown) but she is in denial cuz she refers to herself as a "golden blonde". Here, you don't believe me? Here is a pic of her hair color now. Yes people, she THINKS she is golden blonde. FOR REALS! R U FOR REALS? If that is golden blonde, then my DAD gave birth to me. I feel kinda bad for her though, her mom won't let her dye her hair untill she is married (omg!! i know right) and she has...*ahem* problems. Yes, *those* kinda problems, with her head! And yesterday, she told me the most rudest things ever. Why, you ask? Because she told me these very disturbing and perverted things when I was younger and when I told her that she told me that, she went CRAZY!! Just crazy. I don't wanna talk about this right now cuz this topic is supposed to me about ME, not some crazy girl!

 (*Edited: I removed personal details and information and pictures! Sorry, just in case ya know. Internet is a weird place!)

So that's it for now, cuz I have to take a break.

Adios 

 (>'.')> Vanity Cat <('.'<)

Bashing On Pretty Girls

My first blog post will be about something I've always thought was annoying : bashing on pretty girls whether they are "natural" or not. 
What is it with some people that make them so bitter towards pretty girls? Why do some people see a pretty girl with makeup or dyed hair and automatically go in to defense mode and say "OH SHE'S PRETTY, BUT ITS NOT NATURAL SO IT DOESN'T COUNT!!!"? I'm sorry but what exactly is natural beauty to you? Do you think not wearing any makeup is natural beauty? Do you think not dying your hair is natural beauty? I guess these aren't EXACTLY natural because you weren't born with fully mascaraed lashes or a head full of pink highlights. But then, what about getting braces? Or using acne medication and whitening your teeth? Are those also "not natural" and people who use them "aren't natural beauties"? PLEASE! They are all used for beautification methods, but why do some people assume people aren't natural if they do a certain kind of method?

    People have been trying to make themselves beautiful for centuries and centuries. Beautiful women and ugly women have been using cosmetics and different products to make themselves more attractive. Okay, so there are some people in the world (albeit a very very very small amount) who are naturally born GORGEOUS and never use ANY KIND of product, never had a pimple or blemish, are naturally slim and curvacious at the same time, have amazingly beautiful hair that has never been dyed or curled/straighted, who also have pearly white and straight teeth. These are considered natural beauties in my book because they are true natural beauties. Personally, I have never met a natural beauty in my whole life, but i'm sure there are some out there :) In real life, most people that go on and on about how nachural beeeyooty they are, are usually quite unnatractive and....*GASP* dare I say it.....FUGLY. I'm sorry, but it's the truth. And even they sometimes use non-natural products to be a little more prettier. Not every single girl in this world is beautiful (in my opinion). But they don't stay down do they? Do they accept all their flaws or do they DO something about it? I think girls who have flaws but decide to fix them are the most determined. Because even if they aren't natural beauties or natural "fuglies" (people who say they're natural, but aren't beautiful), they become prettier with their own determination. (and no, I am not one of those %100 self made beauties. I do have a bit of genetics on my side and am no where near ugly but not beautiful either. i wasn't born with fabulous shiny hair, but i use products for example. Or if i don't use face washes, my skin would become horrible. I wore braces for 2 years since my teeth were extremely crooked and took weight loss pills since I wasn't at the weight I wished I could be. So i guess i'm not ALL natural-from-the-day-i-was-born. yea :D

   People I dislike even more are HYPOCRITES! People who say others are fake while they themselves are ALSO fake, but in different ways. For example, a brunette girl who wears makeup but has never dyed her hair would call a girl with makeup and DYED brown hair "fake" because

a) she's jealous she can't/won't dye her hair

b) she's angry someone has attained her "natural" hair color with "fake" means (like hair dye) and is now getting just as much attention (if not more) as she is.

c) she has an extreme hatred towards girls who dye their hair :D

    Personally, I think its either a or b, or a mix between the two. The reason why (in my opinion) the "natural" haired girl, would bash on the dyed haired girl and make her feel bad is pure jealousy. I mean, if i was born with naturally pink hair and some other blonde haired girl dyed her hair pink and got just as much attention as i did, I also would get jealous because MINE would be natural and hers would be fake, but why should we be getting the same attention!? Not fair. (no my hair isn't naturally pink :D i can only wish) 

 And i have some people who tell me not to dye my hair platinum blonde (right now my hair is dark blonde with very light highlights but i'm getting it dyed platinum in a few months. yayy). They tell me that your hair will fall out and you will be bald (wrong because I only use ammonia free dyes and my hair is even healthier looking than most of my virgin haired counterparts since i take really good care of it) (no that is not what you think it means :D it means haired that hasn't been chemically processed, EVER). And personally, i don't think they tell me that out of the pure kindness in their hearts. It's because they themselves CAN'T get their haired dyed due to different reasons. Some people even tell me i shouldn't dye my hair because my natural (light brown) hair suits me better. Which is not true, because my skin used to be dark before and back then, yea i guess it used to suit me. But now, my skin is porcelain colored with pink undertones, so yes, blonde hair DOES look better on me now! Sorry to dissapoint you :P

Whenever people tell me that my natural hair was better I'm like "Umm, thanks for your opinion but i think its a tad bit late CUZ I ALREADY GOT HIGHLIGHTS". This is one of the secret ways,  jealous girls like to bash others. They try to make it seem like a compliment, when in reality its a cleverly disguised insult. I admit I have done this before when people have gotten haircuts that I wished I could have gotten. I would say "oooh, u got a HAIRCUT!!! wow, i wish i could get one. (now comes the green eyed monster) but i think your hair looked better longer. but u still look great now too :/ i heard people regret it when they get their hair cut after a while...." and it goes on. I feel really bad when I think about it, but I don't do that anymore :) However, i do try and tell my friends my opinion if they are doing something that would make them look bad, but i say that BEFORE they get it done.

Another thing that greatly annoys me is when some say that I will never be a blonde even if i dye my hair that color. WHAT THE FUDGE NUGGETS!?? Are you actually that jealous/idiotic/both? WHAT ABOUT CELEBS!? What about Marilyn Monroe. She is probably the most known BLONDE haired women and her natural hair color is BROWN. So do you tell me she is not a blonde because she is faking it and dying her hair blonde? Do you even THINK before speaking? (i think not :P)

And another thing that grates on my nerves me is when girls who wear makeup bash on OTHER girls who also wear makeup. For example (yes i do love examples), a girl that has naturally dark and long eyelashes that bashes on a girl who curls her lashes and wears mascara.

This is soooo stupid. Just because YOU don't wear mascara doesn't mean people who do are insecure/ugly/fake/gross/republicans/crazy/obsessed/maniacs. It means people have different things they want to enhance with makeup or they just FEEL like it. Don't tell others to wear less/more makeup, because it is ABSOLUTELY NONE of your business. Okay, maybe you want to help them, but please don't try to "help" them with your oh-so-amaziingggg opinion when they didn't ask for it. This goes especially for my mom (who won't be reading this blog, since I won't tell her about it :D).

Well, yea. :D I ranted a bit (and on my FIRST POST!! oh the horror). But this is my blog, and I don't think I should be all fake and polite on here. These are my opinions and yes, some people might disagree but I won't apologize for offending anyone. That's like saying sorry for being real.

 (>'.')> Vanity Cat <('.'<)